I confess to feeling afraid—not really of contracting covid-19, but of the world’s reaction to it. It is normal for me to spend time with the Lord daily, reading the bible and in prayer, often multiple times, as well as praising Him with worship music. For some reason I find it more difficult to do this now. I’m not impressed with how I’m behaving. I am tempted to complain, often. It seems I am just like the Israelites. Thankfully, I’ve read their story, met the Promised One, and know that Almighty God can be trusted…even in the desert.

So I fight to think, speak and LIVE truth—and not the fear. Fear of feeding our large family amidst empty grocery isles, food quotas designed for one, and uncertain income. While others arm themselves with supplies and ammunition, I am determined to get wisdom! The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not want!

Wisdom and knowledge will be the stability of your times and the strength of your salvation; the fear of the Lord is His treasure. Isaiah 33:6
I choose to fear God, not man. In a world that is infected with the stealthiest and deadliest of viruses—sin: Lord I believe, help my unbelief! Let this calamity turn my heart fully back to You; tear down my idols and grow my faith!! Open doors for the gospel, put me there and make me bold and courageous! This prayer must rise above the self-preservation that is my knee-jerk response to fear.

Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart,
All you who hope in the LORD. Psalm 31:24

Things that are helping me: scripture (esp. psalms), memorizing verses and rehearsing when feelings of fear come, worship music, hearing God’s power to save and the bravery of saints elsewhere: Sheep Among Wolves Vol II (https://youtu.be/PQZP3Z8qlI4) plus ‘Dreams and Visions’ by Tom Doyle. Limiting my time reading news headlines….

Written by Robin Herman. Robin graduated from Guelph University with a Doctorate in Veterinary Medicine in 1996, heart set on specializing in surgery, but God had different plans! Six children and two decades of homeschooling later, the Lord continues to lead her into surprising places. She is committed to going wherever the gospel takes her, both inside and outside her home—recognizing that the mission field is everywhere. Currently there are five in the Herman homeschool: ages 18, 16, 14, 12 and 10. Their firstborn graduated after being homeschooled all the way through, and is excelling in sophomore year at Central Michigan University on a combined athletic/academic scholarship. The next to graduate is accepted into the nursing program at Cedarville University in Ohio for the upcoming fall, also on scholarship.